Don't please, just live your life to the fullest

Probably it's been so long since I last blogged...

Life isn't as easy as its though, learned so much all these while...
And nothing seems to be able to please me anymore, nothing seems
to be the same already... Not knowing how to love you as much as I
could already because I don't want to be I myself putting in effort
already... So much things have changed, so much to learn so much
to learn to be independent to learn to be stronger :( but I'am really
afraid that I will collapse anything really any sooner :( sigh, what's life
being like this ? Sigh, I want back my own life, those times which
I just work and just numb myself with work everyday :(

没有什么永远, 没有什么很久, 找个借口, 谁都可以先走..

So busy with everything and forgotten about my bloggggg 😐 well things are still getting on the right track I hope nothing much in life to elaborate though 😂😂😂

A promt trip to riversafari with love the other day cos i always wanted to go thereeeee ^.^ 

Yewkeng the other day and also to nialeng for me Sean and also Sam ! well all gotten 1 year yet I'am like stuck with 3 years ~ Ohmy 😫

Times passes fast as well, it's been like 5months ++ being with love already 😁 not hoping much but just forever ? 

The devil doesn't come dressed in a red cape and pointy horns. He comes as everything you've ever wished for.

Really dontknow what's today, didn't it suppose to be the day that we should be happy ? It's our 4th monthsary yet everything turns out this way.... We are really drifting futher and futher away :( 

我们的爱真的是这样的吗? 不能有什么事就坐下来谈吗? 我真的很乱，乱到自己都不知道应该干嘛.... Threatening to leave already isn't the way to make you love me more and hold tighter anymore. What's love to you ? Whatever I do wouldn't satisfies you anyway.... You wouldn't love me like how I love you, you wouldn't take me as your priority anymore, you wouldn't care like how you does, because the love isn't like how it used to be anymore. 

Really feeling depressed, no one to talk to because no one would ever understand how it feels anyway. Even if someone is willingly to be there to listen, they wouldn't know how it really feels to be hurt like this.... I did tried to leave, you holded on, but now you're forcing me to let go of all these :( why ? 

你真的不能爱我那么多一点吗? 我真的爱到你我爱自己还要多了...... 我能付出的我都做了， 可是呢 ? :( 

不是每团爱情的结局都是美好的

                    

Another 10th tmrw, and it's 4 month togetherness. 

ok i am kinda afraid of counting the days already.

cos it seems like no matter how long,

how many uncountable obstacles,

how many tough situations you go through

with someone, one day they will turn their back at you,

for something they think are better than you.

and once they've changed, it is never the exact 

person you firstly knew, they will forget you,

forget your name, forget your face and forget everything

they've said. and so y'all would have to hug tight to

all the broken pieces, feel the ache in every breath of yours, silently..

because you don't want anybody to see 

the weak side of you. finally, you'll have to accept the cruel fact 

that people goes from being a total stranger to lovers 

and back again, from lovers to the most familiar stranger.

nothing last forever, i think this is the easiest lesson

we learn the hardest way.. sad but true.

well, i expected disappointments.

so can i just say i'am already numb to such cruelty?

Expected this day to arrival, be it sooner or later. Thou I'am a lil not happy also disappointed with you but as time goes by I just hope that I'll slowly accept everything you're doing... Perhaps it's also a kind of love you expect from me. I've just to learn to be lil less self-centered.  

                                 

You don't have to see the whole staircase, just take the first step.

Idk why th picture seem so red, but still I've gt this sweet lil girl here being my everyday listener and that's enough. 

Sigh, paranoid, trust, love, relationship? Why it's really such a hassle to be handling my own relationship's problem ? And having trust issue with love. Perhaps it's my fault for not giving a 100% trust on to him. But never put a 100% trust on a guy, they are really gonna let you down anyway. First, you told me you wouldn't be contacting her anymore, yet still... Really dumb of myself and really stupid that I know so much stuffs.... 

也许妈妈说的真对, 是自己没有本事留不住自己男朋友的心，不能怪别人.... 对是有第三者，可是如果你的男朋友不要管她的话，就不会变到这样了.... 

Long chat with mom ytd while on our way to fetch bro, then that's what th only thing she told me after I asked her what to do.... Hais, mom told me to learn smart and be smart, don't take th path she once took, it's really tough :( 

爱一个不爱你的人真的好难 :( 

If only you start realizing how much hurt I've got everyday, if only you could fulfill your promises to me.. If only love doesn't have obstacles to overcome with... 

我不想用离开的方式教会你如何去珍惜

                    

When someone really means the world to you, no matter what mistakes they make you will eventually forgive them... Sigh, perhaps this is life. Well, having a third party in your relationship is another obstacles that almost every relationship will get. But still, bitches out there please fucking maintain yourself. Learn to 自爱 ley, don't fucking be a let down to girl's face.. Perhaps I'am already kind enough this time, if not you'll already have taste my medicine by now. Look, I've given him chance to go to you yet he doesn't want it. I'am not trying to say that I doesn't love my guy anymore or trying to pass him around. But infact he doesn't wants you? I don't know either ? 

And I've to admit that I'am a revengeful person, I treat people the way they treats me and I make sure they get to taste their own medicine maybe not immediately but eventually. When I say I will find things out, you'd better not lie to me..

I am so sorry if you feels violated IF you happen to come across this post. I'am not insulting anyone but it seems like none of you once stood in my point of view or even spared a thought for me. Ok, I know I am no one related to any one of y'all. But at least, fucking respect people's relationship. Thats the least you should know I guess? Unless you want yours to be disturbed, too?

                

I've learnt not to let small things break my happiness

                               

A short-getaway trip to Malaysia with dearest, cousin and my fav aunt. And suppose to have my entrance test in th morning that Saturday, but well all thanks to the ultra smart course consultant not informing me of th venue and make me go all th way to queenstown yet th venue should be at dhoby. So sigh, I'll just pass and take it next week ba.. Oh yeah, Malaysia trip with them was fun thought ?  So my cousin eventually kept asking questions cos my mom asked her to "interview" dearest ! HAHAHA ^_^ damn joke, yet meimei was enjoying asking j question the whole day 😂 

                              

And my cousin also commented saying that we seems likea family in this picture ! 

                               

                               

                               

                               

                               

Too shy to ask, too proud to lose. But sooner of later I gotta choose.

Hello people ! I'am back after a few days not blogging so well I gonna start my story for th week ba ^_^

So recently we've been hanging out with dearest company's like 龍連殿 & 龍城宮 people lo. Well like tiny I already know him for sucha long time already yet still th same pattern 😁 

                                  

Last Sunday was a "excursion" trip to Haw Par Villa with love and co. ... and th weather was ridiculous I swear :( but still maintained till th end of th trip... Aftermath, JP for dinner and csc for relax session :/ not a very prompt one as me and dearest got into a quarrel :( 

Sometimes it's really difficult to be understanding yet the other part don't even wanna try to understand you :( Tsk, let bygones be bygones.... 

                                 

Ohya this tiny gotta bad fall at hawparvilla while chasing after dearest ! LAUGHS, damn joke I swear. 

Well I'm really to type yeahh so I shall just skip to ytd's... 

Had a movie date with dearest over at Jurongpoint just for a short movie cos we realize we hasn't been spending time with just th two of us already since then :( so eventually dearest give an idea of watching movie although it's free from dontknow who haha ! Back home aftermath and dearest was so tired that he slept so early ! Well, so lazy to elaborate much.  

                                 

                                                     #throwback @ hawparvilla with Lijing

也许一个人, 要走过很多路, 经历过生命中无数突如其来的繁华和苍凉后, 才会变得成熟

                               

Back from a tiring and lousy sickening week :( two week of MC each day from work already and gotten my half a day MC ytd again due to not feeling well lo... Too bad even if HR or whatever not happy, I'm really sick what so who cares ^_^ 

                  

So when for yewkeng last weekend with boyf and co. Not a very nice one to watch due to having dmg people there :/ not I don't like them but well, so long never head down and also guys there just ........ nothing much to say about them as well :) living my life satisfied is enough.

                                

And it was minghui's 18th birthday celebration last sat ! Managed to make it on time for BBQ but didn't manage to celebrate with her ytd as it was her actual birthday though...  

                                 

Also thanks to Lijing for being my listening ears th past days, really appreciated so much ! 

You'll always be judged anyway

                                    

Back again readers ! Got a sudden urge to blog as I have got nothing better to do in the office now. And using phone to blog is really a hassle ! Tsk. 

Had a well spend weekend last week with brothers&sisters and most importantly my dearestboyf ! Much laugher and joy enjoying with them as it's the first ever time having all of us to be free and come out together. ^.^ 

                 

                                

                                

                   

                              

                             

                              

                                           

                               

                               

                               

                               

                               

Sums up of those typing with these pictures instead, cos I'm really lazy to type a lot ya.